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hello people reading this... I figured I'd write since its been awhile and i know you are all SO eager to know whats been going on in MY boring life =) guess what? NOTHING!! WEll, went shopping again today.. got a Sponge Bob Square Pants shirt =) teehee finally did my tatt page a few days ago... OhOhOh i might have a job, i'll write in here though when i get it... and i'll explain the lameness of it then :)

hey.... im...

hey.... im bored... yesterday i put a yellw streak in my hair (black light responsive) and its obvious if you know its there...otherwise you cant tell unless im under a black light... cant you all tell i've been SO amused lately? =p Not sure what else to say.... school sitll bites.... applied to some aplces finally so i should have some money soon thank goodness... well lates

dedicated to someone special

Desperate for changing Starving for truth Closer to where I startedchasing after you, I'm falling even more in love with you letting go ofall I've held onto I'm standing here until you make me move I'm hangingby a moment here with you Forgetting all I'm lacking, CompletelyIncomplete I'll take your invitation you take all of me, now i'm fallingeven more in love with you letting go of all i've held on to I'mstanding here until you make me move I'm hanging by a moment here withyou I'm living for the only thing I know I'm running and I'm not quitesure where to go and I don't know what I'm diving into, just hanging bya moment here with you There is nothing else to lose There is nothingelse to find There is nothing in the world that could change my mind,There is nothing else... desperate for changing starving fortruth,I'm closer to where I started I'm chasing after you I'm fallingeven more in love with you, letting go of all I've held onto I'mstanding here until you make me move I'm hanging by a moment here withyou I'm living for the only thing I know I'm running and not quite surewhere to go and I don't know what I'm diving into , just hanging by amoment here with you.....

poem #2

everyday i think of you/in some sort of way/its always good/memories of the past always make me smile/but what about the future/what about tomarrow/will new memories be gained/will old memories fade/will it just be the same/im still thinking/im still smiling/at least i am/below it all/good bye or hello/i still love you**to be this young is oh so scary**

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hmmmm was inspired to write in here today cuz someone else was writing in theirs... well, im happy still.... there are guys out there who care... whether they be friends or boyfriends i know they are there fro me when i need them... even if just to talk to, hug, etc. And there is a particular guy out there, he knows who he is, that has made me feel so happy... a type of happiness i havent felt before... and he understands me so its all cool..... im glad muh buddy bosco is back online, i missed him horribly and he knows that.... my advice person that he is.... we all know the hell my life was without him *L* Well, not much else is going on in my life, im kciken back, bein a hermit but im happy and thats all i really care about... lates**if love was red then she was color blind**

Well,...

Well, surprise surprise i survived hell day *lol* Well im feeling good actually. Im happy. Honestly happy. Its weird. HAvent felt this way in a LONG time. Thanks to all my friends again who put up with me and are giving me self esteem =P love you all!!

HELL DAY!

well, as you all know today is my least favorite day of the year.... seeing everyone happy and shit. fuck them! I have a record now, 18 years straight of being alone on this day.... i decided yesterday that i hate being lonely but fuck it im happy with who i am and im not changing for anyone. And those who disagree or dont like me can stick it up there ass those fucking cocksuckers =) ok all better now.... my mommy bought me a teddy bear today....and my tattoo itches a lot......oh and from my current music "i'd rather tear things down then build them up its easier that way, i hate teachers i hate school i hate the cheeleaders and anyone whos cool"